NOV 7TH

 Had a bizarre dream last night. went to bed bitchier than normal (bummed about Charlie being too far away) and got woken up a few times before the alarm goes off. you know the routine, wakeup, hit the weed vape, try and pass out. 

This must have been about the 3rd wake up pass out of the night, when i had this dream. I swear to God Kelsey was sitting in the back office here at work, and in the dream, we were a couple. not like a newly formed thing, it felt like we had always been a couple. She's sitting there and i walk in, her head about the same height as my belt buckle. I bend over to kiss her, she smiles at me, and I give her a brief gotta go! peck. She smiles up at me after the kiss, and i kiss her again, longer, more passionately. then i simply walk away, with the total confidence of a man who knows she will be there waiting for me when I get home. 

it's the kind of PDA that makes the little kids cringe and the old folks jealous, and its bizarre to me that it was so clearly Kelsey. I love Kelsey and Brendan equally, but i have never thought of Kelsey ion any kind of sexual context. within the first year of meeting Brendan i asked if his relationship with Kelsey was a sexual, and he responded simply with yes. That kind of blew my mind at the time, as i could never really imagine them doing the no pants dance. 

if you had the ability to pick your own family, i would pick them damn near first. so, what's up with this dream? does it actually mean something or am i just overthinking it?