LIFE

 If you love someone, can you ever really stop? no matter how shitty they treat you or how angry you are towards them, you still cant help but love them. The first time i met Alex, i knew i loved them. not in any kind of sexual way, i just knew that whatever happened we would stay friends until the day we die. 

Just like the rest of us, they have a whole host of mental problems. they were diagnosed as Bipolar on there birthday last year, the trauma of a sexually abusive father and an abusive family, poverty, a long habit of self harm way above anything i have ever done, ETC. Alex is easily the strongest person i have ever met, even though he has spent his life surrounded by abusive assholes.

So when Alex told me they were pregnant and had 3 weeks to make a decision, i didn't really know what to say

so i did the best i could. i obviously cant say anything like "i know how you feel" or "that must be difficult", so mostly i just listened. i of course had questions, but i bit my tongue as much as possible. For the record, i think Alex would be an awesome mom. they have always told me about wanting kids someday, and i think that Alex could really give those kids the kind of upbringing he never had. Does that mean i think Alex should keep the kid? No. but that really isn't up to me.

ideally, nobody is trying to push Alex to strongly in one direction or the other. the only opinion that matters on the subject is Alex's, and whatever they deicide to do i will support them entirely. The way i heard Alex talking, i think they might end up keeping it. i could tell by the way Alex was crying that they had already made up there mind, even if they didn't realize it yet. 

Also for the record, this isn't the kind of thing that will keep me up at night. Alex has a good head on there shoulders, and i know he will do whatever they need to do in the end. There body, there choice.