Sometimes it feel like there is suddenly a spotlight on me in a pitch black theatre. Like some kind of a nightmare where there is an impossibly massive audience waiting silently for the show to start, and i don't know my lines. 

When I'm in this spotlight, i finally realize that everything around me is just a set. I can literally feel my sphere of awareness start to shrink, and the best way i can describe it is that it feels like everything around me is starting to fall. like a fish in an aquarium that slowly leaks onto the floor until the fish is left gasping for air.